tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46471039906226888272012-02-16T14:45:07.012-05:00ON THE JOURNEY OF SUCCEEDING....my thoughts, goals, and rants along the ride......ENJOY!Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.comBlogger261100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-15312409510573789012010-02-21T21:13:00.005-05:002010-02-21T21:47:53.983-05:00So.....<div><br /></div><div>Recently I have decided I will no longer be getting perms or any other chemicals in my hair.... I am a <a href="http://maneandchic.blogspot.com/">MANE AND CHIC</a> fanatic....I love her blog and hair..... I was trying hard to transition from my permed hair to my natural hair......I was just tired of my hair being beautiful wavy and curly with straight ends.....and I did something I have never thought I would ever do.....</div><div><br /></div><div>I chopped off a whole inch of my hair!!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>Just woke up this morning...clipped my hair until a mini fro.....lol</div><div><br /></div><div>and paid $165 dollars for braids... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>I was so proud of myself.... So my plan is to wear my hair braided for 6 months....cleanse my scalp every other day and oil it with Carol's Daughter Elixir....I haven't decided if I will keep it braided for 6 months and get the front re-braided.... or if i'll get twists next time.... either way i think i'll keep it braided most of the year....</div><div><br /></div><div>OFFICIAL BIG CHOP DATE : 2/21/10</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-1531240951057378901?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-90545754242223035412010-01-17T18:37:00.004-05:002010-01-17T18:43:04.653-05:00SO.......<div><br /></div><div>I'm newly independent...officially a 5 star chick..lol</div><div><br /></div><div>So I have my own place and at the current moment its not furnished.....</div><div><br /></div><div>I have the necessities like a bed and T.V.....and mostly all the kitchen amenities....</div><div><br /></div><div>So my goal is to furnish each room slowly so I don't become broke and overwhelm myself....</div><div><br /></div><div>In order...</div><div><br /></div><div>Kitchen</div><div>Bathroom</div><div>Living Room</div><div>Bedroom</div><div><br /></div><div>Simple Right?.....not necessarily.....I am very complicated with the things I want.......</div><div><br /></div><div>LOVE LEE</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-9054575424222303541?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-54140359818924169822010-01-15T21:32:00.003-05:002010-01-15T21:51:04.684-05:00SO.............about goal #1.....<div><br /></div><div>It seems Money may have won......</div><div><br /></div><div>It's like as much as I want to do accounting.....I prob will love it like I loved pharmacy and fall out of love again......</div><div><br /></div><div>Another reason I'm having this dilemma is because I keep forgetting why I initially cared about the money in the first place.....</div><div><br /></div><div>FAMILY...</div><div><br /></div><div>I wanted to create stability for my mother and father....</div><div><br /></div><div>HISTORY...</div><div><br /></div><div>My mother is the best person I know. She has worked harder to take care of me and my brothers over the years that I just can't fathom the thought of her working hard later on into her 50's.... I just can't.....My father has had a hard life..... he went to prison for almost 13 years; came out into this world that was of course still punishing him. STILL, he's busting his a** working at a lumbar yard for 1400 after taxes a month. AGAIN, I cannot fathom him busting his a** later on into his 50's at a lumbar yard!!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>So Money wins..... ultimately it will help me as well.... because I refuse to work pass 55 in some shit (yea no asterisk)... that I hate!....</div><div><br /></div><div>I want to become an artist....I love art... and I'll be able to do it with a stable income.... so it is what is........I will become an PHARMACIST..... back to work I'm telling myself right now!</div><div><br /></div><div>LOVE LEE</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-5414035981892416982?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-54338991166444319442010-01-12T23:38:00.002-05:002010-01-13T00:25:29.626-05:00So I'm in a dilemma......<div><br /></div><div> GOAL #1 School</div><div><br /></div><div>So I have been in heavy thought about my future and I have been busting my ass to get in school. It's been very trying but I have been doing what need to do...REALLY.</div><div><br /></div><div>Just a little history on the last 7 years.......</div><div><br /></div><div>I went to a trade school for the Pharmacy Tech program. I did it and succeeded. I learned a lot and I have been in that field for the last 7 years...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">lol</span>...</div><div><br /></div><div>I loved it in the beginning and wanted to be a pharmacist because of the money. As time has gone on, I have lost the love and always in the back of my head wanted to be a CPA. I loved it in high school. It was the perfect challenge for me, I loved everything. I think <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">subconsciously</span> I haven't succeeded in school as far as pharmacy is concerned because I didn't love it. My family is determined for me to be an RPH..but i f**kin hate it!! I work in insurance now and its very clinical pharmacy issues I deal with everyday and I really don't like it.</div><div><br /></div><div>So the question is......LOVE VS MONEY.....?</div><div><br /></div><div>Pharmacist make starting 90,000-120,000 dollars a year.... </div><div>Accountants make starting (CPA) 60,000 starting.....thats a whole 30,000 dollars difference!!</div><div><br /></div><div>Okay.....now how long does it take....??</div><div><br /></div><div>Pharmacy you have to go to school for 2 years then another 4 years of clinical ish.....</div><div>Accountants you have to do abt the same......4 years for bachelors you can start working then 2 years for masters and CPA exam............</div><div><br /></div><div>WTF!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>Love Lee</div><div><br /></div><div> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-5433899116644431944?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-35867020156883556302010-01-06T12:48:00.003-05:002010-01-06T12:55:07.480-05:00So.......<br /><br />As I sit here.......<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> just brainstorming what exactly I want to accomplish it.....and even reserving quiet time this weekend to really go hard on my resolutions. Any other year I would write down, or post somewhere in my home.....but this year I really want to make it count.........I'm 26 now....I'm really growing into myself and I know at this age it sets for how my future will pan out......<br /><br />I'm really concerned with living the norm.......I just don't see it....and i really want to grasp and hold focus of that......<br /><br />See you this weekend....... :)<br /><br />LOVE LEE<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-3586702015688355630?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-6885016060616687322010-01-04T21:51:00.003-05:002010-01-04T22:04:49.397-05:00So were 4 days in already......<div><br /></div><div>I have alot to be thankful for....2009 sucked hard but created a much stronger woman in me....</div><div><br /></div><div>2010....is great so far!</div><div><br /></div><div>I've had great sex, partied my butt off, and spent time with family and a new friend..wink!...yes boo boo i move on and gets it in......lol</div><div><br /></div><div>So it's a lot I want to accomplish:</div><div><br /></div><div>1. I really want to blog more often...its good to see a trail of things your accomplishing or not ..lol</div><div><br /></div><div>2. I've already started growing and becoming natural....my curls are beautiful and show strength and all kinds of sexy.....Want to really get on my MANE AND CHIC......check her out!</div><div><br /></div><div>3. Money is a Major Issue....currently in talks abt getting a financial advisor...I need some serious advice and some goals I want to pursue.</div><div><br /></div><div>4. I want to get in school but its looks like it may be delayed another semester.....not in my control....all I can do is try......</div><div><br /></div><div>5. I want to experience new things.....I'm so tired of the norm.....</div><div><br /></div><div>6. Spend more time with the fam.....i love them!</div><div><br /></div><div>7. Furnish my new apartment! without breaking my pockets!</div><div><br /></div><div>That's all i have for now........I'll let you know (if anyone is even reading)......the first goal by Friday!</div><div><br /></div><div>PEACE AND LOVE........</div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-688501606061668732?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-86358822457467188642009-11-19T08:23:00.002-05:002009-11-19T08:33:10.871-05:00So..........(deep breathe) where should I start???<br /><br />School.......i registered for school on Tuesday...it's apparent the school I enrolled into has no consideration for the working person......there latest class starts at 5:20.......I get off at 5 and theres no way in Jersey traffic hell I'll make it there in time.....so now I have to re-vamp things.....Now I have to sign up at the community college that I didnt want to go to in the first place....Major: Math/Chemistry concentration. Thats a pain in the ass.....because thats the closest degree they have to pharmacy....now I have to request my transcripts again to be reviewed again to this freakin school.....wtf!<br /><br />My car is great butI need to get new tires and insurance on it.......I'm ridin dirty and hope to god I don't get pulled over.....I'm doing the insurance today and hopefully that pans out.......<br /><br />I got my place.....but have nothing in it yet.......:(......so much shit to do!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />I have a lot on my plate and would appreciate things to get done.......until next time!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-8635882245746718864?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-71924344855127708622009-11-09T11:09:00.002-05:002009-11-09T12:29:40.887-05:00So............<br /><br />Updates:<br /><br />Me and the ex-boyfriend...are still not together. It feels free-ing but for some strange reason I still care about his well-being so I'm cordial. But I don't want to be with him....this moment...i don't know if it will change but for right now RIGHT NOW...i don't. honestly!<br /><br />Goals....going good...I purchased a used car from an old couple that barely drove it..needs new tires..but the plus is....NO CAR PAYMENTS. Just insurance.....I love that. I was going to wait to register for classes Wednesday but I think I'm going to just go tomorrow after work. Get the ball moving.....and after that I will be updating moving into my new apt goals......<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-7192434485512770862?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-81504719988572138102009-11-03T08:47:00.002-05:002009-11-03T08:53:27.500-05:00I feel sick. My heart hurts and my eyes are tired from wanting to cry but can’t. He betrayed me like I betrayed him. Karma followed. But I didn’t have any ties, didn’t have to discuss how me and the other would continue, because I didn’t continue. I was loyal overall. I didn’t f--- somebody else because times got hard. I was careful he never found out. If this was vice versa would I have been forgiven. Does that even matter? Do you want to be with him? What is making you want to stay? Revenge? Pretty much. DO YOU WANT TO BE WITH HIM? (long pause)…ok, what is it about him that makes you think u might want to stay? I’m comfortable. That’s not good enough. Theirs no passion. Physically no longer attracted. Personality no longer attracted. Not gonna be able to trust anything he says. He’s conformed to his ways and we know..Men don’t change. Especially when they get away with it once. He doesn’t seem sympathetic , like it’s a normal f--- up and I should forgive him. Yea but he did it twice. His pattern seems to be I’m sorry and then he does it again with everything I don’t like. No real talk, you need to be uncommitted for a year. You jumped to fast in this relationship and you were hurt back to back…..Love was lost…focus on you and your goals. On to the next………<br /><br />This is me battling myself over my boyfriend that cheated on me who I was riding for.....scary how love can put you back with a person that doesn't deserve to be in your presence.......<br /><br />Brand New Lee<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-8150471998857213810?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-12736587284864335962009-10-29T08:56:00.002-04:002009-10-29T09:33:56.891-04:00SO.........<br /><br />I've been gone for a bit, but I'm back with more sh--.....lol<br /><br />So I need order...I have so much I feel I need to accomplish by January 2010. Not because of the New Year, but because I'm going back to school. Moving in with the boyfriend didn't work. We lived together for two weeks and I just couldn't be the one that he relied on heavily. I can't work, go to school, CLEAN UP AFTER A GROWN ASS MAN!!!!...among other things..lol..so now I have to add getting my own place to the goal list........as well as getting a car before then.......UGH!!!<br /><br />So whats the plan???<br /><br />Nov. 11th is approaching.....which is when I register for classes for next semester. I was thinking maybe if I take 2 classes online and one class physically in a class, the car situation won't be so bad since I drive more than my mother drives her whip. I could continue to save money for a car until spring session...because I have made up in my mind that I am NOT under no circumstances paying a car note and insurance unless I am pharmacist...and prob not even then.:)<br /><br />Then I move into my place and have a peace of mind..........and be able to focus on my goals better since I am controlling my living situation...etc....(Ok, i'm feeling like I'm getting somewhere.).......<br /><br />So basically I need to stop thinking so hard and wait until Nov. 11th and go from there......until then.......peaccccccccceeeee!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-1273658728486433596?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-46372492564664598142009-10-06T13:01:00.002-04:002009-10-06T13:16:29.284-04:00So I'm sitting here thinking.....about my relationship. (stop)<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ok</span>....(deep breathe)<br /><br />I feel like I'm a bit scared of this moving in thing......I know it was going to be work and i know no one is perfect but.......damn.<br /><br />MONEY ISSUES...the death of relationships and marriages.<br /><br />So I know <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">I'm</span> getting my shit together slowly....but can I afford to help someone else ??<br /><br />I mean i know coming into the relationship that he was down for me when I had nothing...and I've been riding for him for awhile now...but....how long are you suppose to ride?<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Idk</span>...I told him we have to have a thorough talk tonight........(cringing).......<br /><br />where's this hesitant scared feeling coming from??<br /><br />The Ex.........<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">hmm</span>..<br />In my last relationship again...<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">I'm</span> loyal, exactly like a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Leo</span>.........(<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">fukin</span> hate it sometimes)...I was down for him...gave him when I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">didn't</span> have to give...he never did it in return; leading to this <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">situation</span> I am like SCARED to death of being taken advantage of again........<br /><br />not only in relationships.......everything!<br /><br />So I'm feeling like in order for me and him to work....he has to take responsibility for his debt...I AM........he has to understand that...but,.....<br /><br />people are funny with money....<br /><br />Lets hope he <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">isn't</span>...I take it very seriously......<br /><br />Had to let that out.........<br /><br />LOVE LEE<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-4637249256466459814?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-53751438571842121542009-10-01T19:53:00.002-04:002009-10-01T20:05:48.358-04:00so........<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> home sick in bed with 2 days off (yes!) <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">lol</span>...<div><br /></div><div>Anyhow my updates for Goal #1 are these:</div><div><br /></div><div>1. Transcripts are transferred. Even though my credits for <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Kaplan</span> did not transfer. DO NOT GO TO A ONLINE SCHOOL unless you know for a fact and have no even an ounce of doubt that you may go to another school and transfer your credits....they do not transfer...! (deep breathe)...</div><div><br /></div><div>2. SO....early registration is Nov. 10.....I will be there! The classes I plan on taking is English II and a math..not sure..I wanted to take 3 courses though.....prob a science.....</div><div><br /></div><div>So.....<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">that's</span> all for now until Nov. 10.....</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-5375143857184212154?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-43351917946986828542009-09-24T08:13:00.002-04:002009-09-24T08:50:20.129-04:00I'm feeling like....pissed off but not in an angry way but in a hurtful way.<br /><br />Relationships are hard, I get it......But, really????<br /><br />In my last relationship I was so in love I stayed with someone that constantly played with my heart and mind. I stayed with him for 6 years.....6 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />I'm a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Leo</span> and sometimes are flaws are that we are LOYAL.<br /><br />Maybe too fucking loyal......<br /><br />Anyhow my current relationship isn't like that. But he def showed his ass last night........<br /><br />We get to his home...i"m going to say because I'm pissed. Anyhow, the house is a mess already because he's..just a mess...and I may have a bit of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">OCD</span>, but I'm not bitching <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">abt</span> shoes in the middle of the floor or something petty like that......the house smells sour from dirty water in the sink......I AM PISSED...forgive me if it's not a big idea.....(it is to me!) He made his lunch this morning and doesn't have to be to work until 11 am....<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">wtf</span> are you doing??? Instead of arguing I just clean up the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">kitchen</span> to my standards....on my knees cleaning the floor........like I'm 26 and he's 32......u still haven't learned to clean the FUCKING kitchen????!!!!!!!!!! sigh.......<br /><br />my head hurts.....and he just acts as if I <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">wasn't</span> on my knees cleaning his floor and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Saturday</span> night I wasn't cleaning his room........I just want to be appreciated........that's it....after I'm finished doing for you can you turn the shower on for me...or rub my feet....or just fucking hold me......like am i asking to much???<br /><br />Like I'm a ride or die.......<br /><br />He's going through some shit right now with his child and his money ain't right....what do i do???<br /><br />I make sure he eats every night, puts gas in his car, put groceries in his house....I do everything for him......so I lose it....I feel like I'm right where I left with my ex...(pause)<br /><br /><br />I tell him: I was with someone for 6 years that took advantage, and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">dont</span> think for one sec you will even have one week. BITCH!!! (sorry, it's my <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">fav</span> word)....and i didn't disrespect him by saying but this is my blog dammit!!!! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">lol</span>...<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">im</span> done.<br /><br />LOVE LEE<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-4335191794698682854?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-6213379700100193482009-09-22T09:01:00.007-04:002009-09-22T14:01:06.876-04:00So...........I'm going to make this simple only because I don't want to overwhelm myself.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Ok</span>......here we go...<br /><br />I get paid twice a month and decide I'm going to put away 30% of my check into savings. So equaling to about 700 dollars a month. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">That's</span> a nice little stash.......I've already started this month and have that much in savings...<br /><br />Things are changing and I'm moving with my bf.....it's a truly a big step for me, because I'm an ultra conservative young women...I think hard about everything and have never lived with anyone. I love him and think we may have a future so of course me and my overly thinking comes to this plan....<br /><br />BACK-UP PLAN: So ladies you must always think of those with men...no matter how much love there is they can always screw you in the end...so <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">that's</span> why the savings plan in case i have to move...hopefully not and it can keep building but you never know these days....<br /><br />Back to the moving......<br /><br />His lease is up in January and I want to get a place together in a secluded area or a doorman..either or ,he has (baby mama drama).........<br /><br />But I think its good for us....I mean if it <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">doesn't</span> work we break up or stay together and live apart its that simple.....either way we don't waste each others time....because I have no time to waste...<br /><br />Back to the money..........<br /><br />So with saving....my credit is in shambles........<br /><br />So while paying my monthly bills I'm going to also pay debts off slowly....I seen this thing on Dave Ramsey where its like a snowball effect....you save and pay off any debts starting with smallest debt and on on on.....<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">that's</span> what I'm going to do....that list coming....but <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">I'm</span> paying off a debt already (rent debt from Miami)...its not on my credit and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">don't</span> want it there if I'm trying to get a place......paying $210 a month....i have $836.00 to go.........<br /><br />FINAL PLAN:<br />1. 30% of paycheck goes in savings off top. NO excuses!!!<br />2. Rent Debt: 210 monthly and if can pay extra do so....<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">bal</span>:836<br />*<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">that's</span> all for now....then when done the Snowball Debt Effect<br /><br />So lets get it like <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">JEEZY</span>!!!!<br /><br />update: 9/22/09 settled rent debt to 600!!! Paid! LIst coming soon....btw..god is good!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-621337970010019348?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-10899038546248900622009-09-21T10:28:00.003-04:002009-09-21T11:12:38.472-04:00So...before I went to bed I prayed last night.....<br /><br />Basically asking for the ability to be <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">positive</span> at work this week and to help me focus on my goals then the negative that surrounds me Monday <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">thru</span> Friday 9-5. What i woke up to was my brain saying you have to focus on your goals specifically money. I personally think that was my god whispering in my ear because I once again woke up tired of going to work and not being able to live the life I want....<br /><br />I know it may seem selfish to think....everyone has to work..y should I be any different??....<br /><br />yea but life is too short to work hard and not experience the happiness that you long for. I would hate to go on in life and just work for something <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">that's</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">unfulfilled</span>......I can't except that..smh..i just can't....<br /><br />I went on to think before I went to work that I needed to save as much money as I can and I'm going to work from home or part time....I can't keep letting my job get in the way of studying and etc....my job is not allowing me to advance to the bigger things.... and now I'm not feeling bad for feeling like this because god whispered in my ear...............<br /><br />Next Goal# 2 : Money Saving Goals<br /><br />LOVE LEE<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-1089903854624890062?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-71356313704795392292009-09-10T20:19:00.007-04:002009-09-22T09:53:35.095-04:00Finally I'm registered for school!!! <div><br /></div><div>Man ! It took me awhile but I got everything straightened out....transcripts sent to my school. So now basically I just wait for transcripts to be reviewed and register early for my classes in November...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">AHHHHHHHHHHH</span> finally accomplished.</div><div><br /></div><div>Feels good to have one thing on my list checked off.</div><div><br /></div><div>I also have some new things going on...</div><div><br /></div><div>I always thought I was an artsy chick..so I'm taking an oil painting class for my leisure time. Every <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">saturday</span> for 4 hours....I'm excited to learn how to paint.</div><div><br /></div><div>Did you hear the blueprint 3..hot shit!! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Hov</span> is always on that new shit...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">lol</span></div><div><br /></div><div>My relationship with my boyfriend just made it to a year. To be honest it's tough. I love him but I don't love him like I love me yet...lol....real talk...people tend to forget there first love is themselves. Work is...work...I'm tired of working for these cr**ckers..lol...just being honest. Trying to see after I save some dough if I can do some home customer service sh!t so I can go to school in the mornings or just on my time and schedule work on my time...feel me??</div><div><br /></div><div>So whats goal #2....I have a side business I'm trying to get off the ground. About to look further into it after this entry...anyhow......I'm so ambitious.......(<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">hov</span>)</div><div><br /></div><div>Love Lee</div><div> </div><div> </div><div>UPDATE: Credits from one of my previous schools reviewed and received. Just waiting on the second and should be good as far as credits go......!!!!!<br /></div><div><br /></div><div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-7135631370479539229?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-8276755426094821852009-08-02T17:41:00.004-04:002009-08-02T17:48:02.908-04:00SO....its my Birthday! <div><br /></div><div>I'm feeling like a grown women....I'm officially 26!</div><div><br /></div><div>And most people feel like crap when they turn any age after 25. But I don't. I feel good....took some much needed me time out today. I feeling like it's that time to conquer the world..lol...I mean my goals. Before I get into that, I want to thank god for giving me more time to accomplish my goals. I am most grateful and ask to please forgive me for my own roadblocks called inconsistency and discipline. </div><div><br /></div><div>But I back now....no more depression, no more complaining (at least i'll try)....i'm just going to learn to be patient and really focus and be more conscious of my goals and my future. So heres to a new me......</div><div><br /></div><div>Brand New Lee</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-827675542609482185?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-27901952057247997422009-07-26T01:13:00.004-04:002009-08-11T13:38:19.944-04:00SO....I want to be...nah, let me re-phrase that... <div><br /></div><div>I am going to be a PHARMACIST......</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>What needs to be done....</div><div><br /></div><div>1. Took a couple of credits from <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Kaplan</span> University when I was going to school for Accounting. </div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="WHITE-SPACE: pre"></span>-I have to pay $645 dollars to release my credits</div><div><span style="color:#cc33cc;"> </span></div><div><br /></div><div>2. Enroll at my new local community college..(moved to Delaware from Miami)...</div><div><br /></div><div>3. Pick 3 classes to start.</div><div><br /></div><div>Estimated Start: January 2010</div><div> </div><div><span style="color:#cc33cc;">Update: $645 dollars paid! 8/11/09</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-2790195205724799742?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-47367577619050930272009-07-24T09:05:00.003-04:002009-07-24T10:34:09.841-04:00lol....<br /><br />On a lighter note....my blog is so freakin' depressing...well I have been really miserable, depressed and unhappy.......<br /><br />F##ck that....<br /><br />I'm tired of bitchin' and letting things get in my way. I'm tired of letting people who take advantage get to me. Yea, my feelings are hurt..but I need to find another way of dealing with it....instead of making it "poor me" I need to deal with it and keep it moving.<br /><br />SO.......My #1st goal is.............School!<br /><br />I have been making good money, but I need that PROFESSIONAL money....<br /><br />Pharmacy it is....you can call me Dr.Lee.... Goal Action Plan coming...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-4736757761905093027?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-68902403992863365822009-07-23T13:10:00.001-04:002009-07-23T13:18:21.431-04:00So my mind is everywhere...it's like I know what I want to do..I plan it and other things get in the way or my mind changes....or just something happens!!<br /><br />I'm constantly in a dilemma...not drama but in a dilemma with myself. I need to this..I want to do that...but what should I start with and can I really do one thing at a time....<br /><br />My mind is jumble as I write this....I'm confused and angry with myself....I can't seem to find that moment where I can just sit and think of what goes first because I'm working or <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">i'm</span> too tired to think....<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">wtf</span>!!!!<br /><br />This weekend I have to take the time for me....just me...phone off...just me<br /><br />Love Lee<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-6890240399286336582?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-59329434270026814712009-07-19T23:52:00.003-04:002009-07-28T21:10:44.215-04:00So I've been gone.....mentally and emotionally lately....<div><br /></div><div>Last week I went through something that was mind-blowing and as the title of this post "Life changing". So the man that basically raised me lost his life....or took his life is the correct way to explain it. It hurt me more than words can explain. Actually, I don't have the words to explain...and I'm full of energy and just can't explain the feelings I went through all week preparing for his funeral. It has to be to this day the hardest thing I had to go through to this date emotionally. It hurt me so bad but as I get better with coping that he no longer is here...I learned one thing....Stress will kill you if you don't get control of what bothers you. </div><div><br /></div><div>I've listed the things that bother me...mostly to do with trying to be successful. But I realized that I need to be more active and consistent with my goals. My main goal in life is to take care of my family or be put in a position where I could to take care of my family if necessary. </div><div><br /></div><div>Everyday that goes by because time flies.....is one less day you have to achieve your goals. Your not promised life and sometimes you can overwhelm yourself to the point of taking where my step-father took it...he was one the strongest people I knew and never for one second thought he could/would take your life.....</div><div><br /></div><div>So the next question is....What is it I TRULY want and what are the steps????</div><div><br /></div><div>LOVE LEE</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-5932943427002681471?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-1912649931304971932009-06-10T17:20:00.006-04:002009-06-11T12:50:18.971-04:00Getting back to my last blog....I really aint feeling this 9-5 shit....like really...Word to everything I love.....it's not about being lazy because I'm the first to let a b**** know there being lame and lazy or anything in that category. So I figure this is the perfect time to let the world know me and why I feel the way I've been feeling....lets start about 5 years ago...age:20 <div><br /></div><div>Around this time I was in tech school doing my school thing because I had in my head I was gonna get a trade before I went to college...Done...got it starrting working make good money for young girl. Bought me a new Altima.....started college..well...attempted. Took a couple classes in the beginning but was focus on partying and bullshit plus working....at the small amount of time I was forced to grow up. My moms (who I was still staying with) was messing with some dude that I still hate to this day....Hate may not be a strong enough word....but anyway..he basically fucked my relationship up with my mother....(u know how women get on there significant other bullshit)...basically couldnt take it anymore forcing a situation of moving with my bestfriends turned roomates....long story...(future post) I was doing well until moms relationship started to deteriote with dude.....</div><div><br /></div><div>I knew that shit wasn't gonna work...but hey... its my moms...hard times after hard times happen. Basically making me the bread winner in a lot of ways....before that I bought a benz...yea 23 year old driving a benz right?? FLY!! may have been an understatement...lol..</div><div><br /></div><div>So my moms and my little brother had to move in with me and my two bestfriends temporarily....im paying bills and taking care of two extra people...of course my bestfriends get tired of the situation so we beefing....(all apart of life, im not mad)...im barely holding on to my benz....finally my mom and my brother move to ATL.....stress relieved right??...NO!</div><div><br /></div><div>I got bills out the ass.......money coming in but paying for shit that I didn't pay for because I was feeding 2 extra people...I was making good money but for a single woman with no children!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>It gets worse......I live in Sunny MIAMI......(born and raised)..btw..</div><div>Expensive as NY..my roommates I don't like very much...lol...fuck it im moving...rent in miami is 1100 for a one bedroom and thats decent...my brother is going through a living situation we get a place together.......</div><div><br /></div><div>Ahhhhhh...you would think everything is getting better..NOPE!</div><div><br /></div><div>My brother loses his job....I just get a new job making more money...they lay me off 2 months later.....literally we lost our jobs in a 3 week span..</div><div> </div><div>SO....i started to feel like fuck it...what am I gonna do???</div><div> </div><div>Long story short..........i lose my benz (goldie was her name)...my place I cant afford..me and brother move to the north with my grandmother....</div><div> </div><div>Now I'm here living in my grandmothers house and taking the bus to work..(im grateful)..</div><div> </div><div>The way things change.......now the question is....WHATS THE PLAN????</div><div> </div><div> </div><div><br /></div><div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-191264993130497193?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-24671766855058569802009-06-09T12:29:00.005-04:002009-07-28T21:09:20.525-04:00So I'm at work on my break blogging because I'm inspired at the moment. <div><br /></div><div>I just can't see working for someone for the next 50 years (in my case)...before retirement. It has nothing to do with being lazy. Really!! If the American dream consist of working 8 hours a day and 5 days a week...I don't want to be apart of the American Dream...sorry but thats just not my way of seeing how my life is suppose to go. I think we are brainwashed into thinking that bulls*** is the way of life.....In another perspective...if you love doing what you do...then I am all for waking up early and going to work for 8 hours......but how many people do you know really want to work 8 hours a day??</div><div><br /></div><div>More to come...whats your American Dream???</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-2467176685505856980?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-31730903710810178762009-06-09T12:26:00.002-04:002009-06-09T12:29:10.223-04:00So far so good....I actually have been working out more than I anticipated..<div><br /></div><div>Saturday: Cardio; Concentrated on my arms and legs.</div><div>Sunday: Cardio; Whole body workout.....felt so good afterwards....</div><div>Monday: Cardio; felt awful and tired as hell!!!</div><div>Tuesday: Break....lord knows my body needs it!! lol</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-3173090371081017876?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-82929378247045963132009-06-06T09:56:00.004-04:002009-06-06T11:04:35.325-04:00I feeling a lot better since yesterdays post. I feel motivated and ready to conquer my sh** that I need to face and get better. The first thing I want to focus on is my mental. Yesterday all I heard in my head was "This can't be life"...(HOV)...<div><br /></div><div>As I sit here and type... I'm thinking how I can my mind right and myself to think more logically than emotionally. Emotions get in the way of your logic. A lot of times in my opinion I think that's why it's easier for men to successful because they are logical thinkers. As women we can't help were more emotional thinkers in certain situations.  SO....here's the plan....</div><div><br /></div><div>Goals:</div><div><br /></div><div>1.  To relieve stress I'm working out 3 times a week besides today : Mon. Tue. and Wed. for 30 minutes of cardio and weight training particularly on my legs, abs, and arms. Abs regime will begin with 100 sit ups and increased everyday  by 15. Abs will be done 7 days a week.  <a href="http://www.findcounseling.com/journal/health-fitness/">Health and Fitness decreases depression without medication.</a></div><div><br /></div><div>2. Meditation..just sit down for 10 minutes and quiet my mind in the morning before the chaos called work..lol...begins.</div><div><br /></div><div>3.  Eating less refined sugars and white bread..not cutting it out completely but having a small amount. More fruits and vegetables is the goal.</div><div><br /></div><div>So if I do all this for one week....let's see how I feel.......more goals coming....</div><div><br /></div><div>Shes gotta have it...LEE</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-8292937824704596313?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4647103990622688827.post-88658104574409714982009-06-05T21:44:00.002-04:002009-06-05T22:07:13.924-04:00I was trying to figure out how i was gonna start this blog for like a month now....and I've came to conclusion that I need to freestyle and do me.......so heres go........<div><br /></div><div>I want the money cars and the clothes......but really I just want to be successful...NOt really in that particular order....honestly I can care less abt those materialistic things...but Money Is A Major issue....M.I.A.M.I....I've been going though some s***.....like the rest of the world with the recession and all.......but I've been going through some s*** before the recession. </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm in deep depression.....</div><div><br /></div><div>Not at all suicidal...but I'm depressed......</div><div><br /></div><div>When I come home from work all I want to do is go home and lay in my bed quietly, lights off, and lay there....sometimes restless but feel like if I move I'm one second closer to facing all the s*** that makes me depresssed. I find myself reading blogs and come across something absolutely inspiring <a href="http://blackgirlinthecity.wordpress.com/2009/06/05/recognize…then-fight/">http://blackgirlinthecity.wordpress.com/2009/06/05/recognize…then-fight/</a></div><div><br /></div><div>It made me realize that the same s*** keeps happening because I don't confront it. I just let it run it's course until it happens all over again. I have a lot on my plate but I feel better when I write. Shes gotta have it will be my therapy...and hopefully I inspire or help someone else along the way....thanks Black Girl...</div><div><br /></div><div>AAAAHHHH....my intro is done........</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">Shes gotta have It...LEE</span></div><div><div><br /></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4647103990622688827-8865810457440971498?l=kaysgonnahaveit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brand New LEEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06820098058268171627noreply@blogger.com0