Love VS Reality

I feel sick. My heart hurts and my eyes are tired from wanting to cry but can’t. He betrayed me like I betrayed him. Karma followed. But I didn’t have any ties, didn’t have to discuss how me and the other would continue, because I didn’t continue. I was loyal overall. I didn’t f--- somebody else because times got hard. I was careful he never found out. If this was vice versa would I have been forgiven. Does that even matter? Do you want to be with him? What is making you want to stay? Revenge? Pretty much. DO YOU WANT TO BE WITH HIM? (long pause)…ok, what is it about him that makes you think u might want to stay? I’m comfortable. That’s not good enough. Theirs no passion. Physically no longer attracted. Personality no longer attracted. Not gonna be able to trust anything he says. He’s conformed to his ways and we know..Men don’t change. Especially when they get away with it once. He doesn’t seem sympathetic , like it’s a normal f--- up and I should forgive him. Yea but he did it twice. His pattern seems to be I’m sorry and then he does it again with everything I don’t like. No real talk, you need to be uncommitted for a year. You jumped to fast in this relationship and you were hurt back to back…..Love was lost…focus on you and your goals. On to the next………

This is me battling myself over my boyfriend that cheated on me who I was riding for.....scary how love can put you back with a person that doesn't deserve to be in your presence.......

Brand New Lee