O really.............

I'm feeling like....pissed off but not in an angry way but in a hurtful way.

Relationships are hard, I get it......But, really????

In my last relationship I was so in love I stayed with someone that constantly played with my heart and mind. I stayed with him for 6 years.....6 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a Leo and sometimes are flaws are that we are LOYAL.

Maybe too fucking loyal......

Anyhow my current relationship isn't like that. But he def showed his ass last night........

We get to his home...i"m going to say because I'm pissed. Anyhow, the house is a mess already because he's..just a mess...and I may have a bit of OCD, but I'm not bitching abt shoes in the middle of the floor or something petty like that......the house smells sour from dirty water in the sink......I AM PISSED...forgive me if it's not a big idea.....(it is to me!) He made his lunch this morning and doesn't have to be to work until 11 am....wtf are you doing??? Instead of arguing I just clean up the kitchen to my standards....on my knees cleaning the floor........like I'm 26 and he's 32......u still haven't learned to clean the FUCKING kitchen????!!!!!!!!!! sigh.......

my head hurts.....and he just acts as if I wasn't on my knees cleaning his floor and Saturday night I wasn't cleaning his room........I just want to be appreciated........that's it....after I'm finished doing for you can you turn the shower on for me...or rub my feet....or just fucking hold me......like am i asking to much???

Like I'm a ride or die.......

He's going through some shit right now with his child and his money ain't right....what do i do???

I make sure he eats every night, puts gas in his car, put groceries in his house....I do everything for him......so I lose it....I feel like I'm right where I left with my ex...(pause)


I tell him: I was with someone for 6 years that took advantage, and dont think for one sec you will even have one week. BITCH!!! (sorry, it's my fav word)....and i didn't disrespect him by saying but this is my blog dammit!!!! lol...

im done.

LOVE LEE